What is keeping me standing?

I have been asking myself how am i standing to this day when i’m suppose to have fallen a long time ago.

Hope keeps me going. Wine helps me fall asleep. God is my pillar of strength.

Being an impatient person that I thought I was, I have suprised myself to find that there is lots of patience that dwells within me than I would have ever imagined. I unfortunately cannot say the same with my temper though.

In the past weeks I have had to surrender and seek the help of a psychotherapist. Yes I am educated and all but in my life I’d promised myself that I would never ever go for psychotherapy no matter what. However my life was falling apart and I could not hold it together any longer.
I went for my first session, it did not heal me but helped me see the light at the end of the turnel. I even learnt that I suffer from the rare disorder called DPD (Dependent Personality Disorder) and and and.


My 30th Year Wishes

Turning 30 in 90 days and I’m so excited, actually looking forward to see what the next 10 years in the 30 has in store for me❤️. The past almost 30 years have been everything that I never imagined they would be when we had a pr-exist meeting with the Father. He didn’t give anything away actually he just told me that I am going to make it come anything He has got my back. Let me not brag.

Some of my friends also turning 30 soon are very anxious but I ain’t anxious about nothing, I am great full for everything and don’t be fooled it’s not a walk in the park, it’s actually a mountain climb. I am greatful though😊. I have a lot to show and I believe there is no limits to God’s blessings for me.

I need to start with the planning because my oh my I want those good things, I want those lovely gifts from people who love me and whom I also love. I actually want beautiful teasers because I am so I love with my tea. I want shoes, I want massages, I want abakhongi, I want car keys, I want house keys and the cellphone password. I want it all. Now!

Here’s to lifetime of love, fun, joy and lessons🥂🍾🍾