I have been asking myself how am i standing to this day when i’m suppose to have fallen a long time ago.
Hope keeps me going. Wine helps me fall asleep. God is my pillar of strength.
Being an impatient person that I thought I was, I have suprised myself to find that there is lots of patience that dwells within me than I would have ever imagined. I unfortunately cannot say the same with my temper though.
In the past weeks I have had to surrender and seek the help of a psychotherapist. Yes I am educated and all but in my life I’d promised myself that I would never ever go for psychotherapy no matter what. However my life was falling apart and I could not hold it together any longer.
I went for my first session, it did not heal me but helped me see the light at the end of the turnel. I even learnt that I suffer from the rare disorder called DPD (Dependent Personality Disorder) and and and.
Turning 30 in 90 days and I’m so excited, actually looking forward to see what the next 10 years in the 30 has in store for me❤️. The past almost 30 years have been everything that I never imagined they would be when we had a pr-exist meeting with the Father. He didn’t give anything away actually he just told me that I am going to make it come anything He has got my back. Let me not brag.
Some of my friends also turning 30 soon are very anxious but I ain’t anxious about nothing, I am great full for everything and don’t be fooled it’s not a walk in the park, it’s actually a mountain climb. I am greatful though😊. I have a lot to show and I believe there is no limits to God’s blessings for me.
I need to start with the planning because my oh my I want those good things, I want those lovely gifts from people who love me and whom I also love. I actually want beautiful teasers because I am so I love with my tea. I want shoes, I want massages, I want abakhongi, I want car keys, I want house keys and the cellphone password. I want it all. Now!
Here’s to lifetime of love, fun, joy and lessons🥂🍾🍾
Like with everything I attempt I don’t spend enough time to learn, understand and enjoy things. We all taken aback by change and we respond in different ways either fight or flight. I enjoy changing so much that I don’t mind changing constantly.
I’m at the peak of my career at the moment and am enjoying every moment of it. I am learning new things about myself everyday and adopting better ways to do things. I thank God for that one guy who reminded me of the power that I have. I face new and old challenges daily and no day or week is the same as the other.
On the other hand I am more involved in church, recently joined the reception department and there I am learning about serving.
I am still a mommy. Was hoping to start my own small business next month but there is no time. I want the son to come stay with me.
I still love my blog and will commit to write at least once a week.
Many are says we sit and tell each other that we want to leave a legacy for our generation when we no longer around so they will not have to start from nothing like we did. But action dololo, you get to 40 and you own car better than your parents but otherwise you are a worker and dependent on your salary.
So today while the other kids are outside playing remember June 16, I’m sitting here doing some research on how I can make extra money. For me it’s not much about money but more about having some kind of business. Whole others are busy with amabhanoyi (pyramid schemes) – I’m looking at a different market and plan not to rob people. It might lead to restless weekends, but hey NandSam(Lelo) has been an idea for a very long time we getting it started today.
My brain is working overtime that I’m even getting a headache. I need to get me a cup of tea, because I’m staying away from coffee and I need the energy.
HAPPY YOUTH DAY
Weird, whom am I greeting.
I’m pleased to be able to reintroduce myself.
My full name is Samukelisiwe Dube, better known as Samu/ Samke.
A happy, caring, smart and crazy person. Beautiful and Zulu bodied.
A mother of 2, son(2) and daughter (8).
HR Professional, currently working as HR Manager for one of thriving companies in South Africa.
I enjoying reading anything that is worth a read- that is books, newspapers, magazines, blogs, etc.
My blog is personal and contains my thoughts.